We are the sum total of our experiences and define ourselves by what we do and who we love.

My identity has been forged by a number of things. Life was not kind to me as a bi-racial female growing up in the Texas Panhandle in the 60’s and ’70s. Not only was the environment inhospitable to say the least, but my family was also plagued with mental illness, turmoil, and dysfunction. The life script I was given was tragically flawed, and I lacked the knowledge, resources, or support to effect positive change. I carried this toxic programming into adulthood where I repeatedly chose partners who were similarly incapable of providing anything healthy or long-lasting. …

Unpacking Personality Disorders and a Deep Dive into the Infamous Cluster B

A personality disorder and a personality trait are not the same things. A trait is simply a personality characteristic like generosity or greed. Personality disorders are grouped by the DSM chart into three groups (A, B, C) based on their manifestations. Often internally chaotic disorders that cannot be regulated easily, they are maladaptive patterns of behavior that affect every part of a person’s life. It causes them problems in all areas of their existence and can wreak havoc in the lives of all those around them. …

We Have Arrived at the Precipice: The Culture of Ego Will End Us

“Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.”

In “The Second Coming” by poet William Butler Yeats, he asserts that chaos is descending upon the world; the forces that should bring order are failing to do so. His message is that the present world is falling apart, and a new ominous reality is going to emerge. …

The narcissist, sociopath, and psychopath all share common traits and often have overlapping features

Popular culture is enmeshed in a love affair with naming and stamping and labeling, and no word has experienced such rampant growth as the term narcissist. We all have narcissistic tendencies, but it is when it crosses the line into pathological narcissism that it becomes a disorder. And psychopaths come with their own branding, too. For decades, Hollywood and television have entertained the idea of the psycho with all its variations on that common theme. But what do these diagnoses actually mean? While there are profound differences, there are also quite a few similarities. …

Incredible new scientific discovery! Sea slugs are capable of decapitating themselves and regenerating their entire bodies. I need to do that!

The phenomenon is believed to be the most extreme example of self-amputation and regeneration ever witnessed!

Once detached, the heads freely move around feeding on algae. The self-inflicted wound heals within 24 hours, and they are able to subsist without vital organs by hijacking chloroplasts from the algae and performing photosynthesis internally. An almost exact copy of the original body returns within two to three weeks, and even weirder…their headless discarded body stays alive for months.

Exactly how and why the animals discard their bodies is unknown. The whole process may be triggered by the presence of internal parasites or some other destructive force. Regenerative medicine in humans is a reality now.

Okay, I think you…

Bare, powerless, vulnerable, nude, exposed, helpless —

The Narcissistic-Psychopath is a Master at Taking Off Your Clothes

The concept of being naked is one that can be disturbing. It implies revealing your most inner and vulnerable self and standing there in front of another — subject to scrutiny and judgment. It reveals your imperfections and insecurities. It shows your flaws. Few eyes can gaze upon this flesh-suit or birthday-suit that comprises a human form without feeling quite vulnerable and exposed. It is also used to describe things like “naked ambition” and “naked truth.” Depending on the context, the word consistently conveys a powerful image. It is a…

Elegy for the Dead Ones Who Dwell in Delusion

Narcopath Tales: Volume 1

When your life is a smoldering heap of ashes, every dream destroyed, the dagger still dangling from your chest, and the awareness that you have been completely and utterly erased, it is difficult to forgive the one who was the author of this tragedy. It is unfair and unjust to think that one human could completely eradicate another human and never look back. The first impulse is to seek justice. Demand justice. …

When the narcopath is the most amazingly sweet and wonderful person you know

Few people would describe me as sweet. I have spent my entire life trying to be a good person and most would agree that with the exception of a couple of bad personal choices in partnering, I always act to benefit others in the best ways that I can. I consistently sacrifice my own happiness for others and am unselfish in my gifts of time and service as well as financial support. I possess a working moral compass, and when I make mistakes, I am quick to acknowledge them and assume accountability and try to correct them in any way…

Learned helplessness paralyzes recovery after narcissistic abuse

Life with a disordered partner who suffers from a personality disorder can cause a complete surrender of self and independence.

You must take back your power, self-partner, and set healthy boundaries.

I was recently surprised to learn that I still have intense and powerful feelings that are beyond my control. I met up with my ex-narc husband to exchange some final things after 17 months apart. I expected that it would be a fairly calm and uneventful experience, but I was wrong. Immediately upon recognition of his face, I was hit with an intense and overwhelming feeling of euphoric bliss, much like the addicts who feel the heroin as it melts their bodies into catatonia. It did not make sense…

The mind shift that will set you free

A Wicked Little Tale for Disordered Lovers Everywhere

It’s common knowledge that Paris is for lovers. When my husband and I first married in a whirlwind blur of tumultuous madness, we landed in Paris and rented an apartment for a month near Saint-Germain-de-Pres in the core of the 6th arrondissement. In addition to sipping espresso at Café de Flore and wandering down the banks of the Seine with crepes in hand, we stumbled upon a choir practice in the oldest church in Paris, the Église de Saint Germain des Prés where we lit candles and whispered prayers for the dead…

Prajinta Pesqueda

Educator, aspiring humanist, composer of words. Survivor, warrior, healer, believer. Visit my website: http://narctroopers.com & contact @ NARC2Thrive@gmail.com

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