After the Narcissist Abandons and Deletes All Memory of You, You Can Reimagine a New Life — Tabula Rasa — Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run And there’s still time to change the road you’re on- Stairway to Heaven Some aspects of life are beyond your control, and I am reminded of that once again as a friend recently drew this card…

The Structural Integrity of the Brain with NPD is Compromised — The cognitive dissonance in a relationship with an NPD partner is substantial, but perhaps it’s all in their head. Literally. In recent years, we can actually see narcissism in the brain shown in imaging tests like MRIs and CT scans. People who suffer from narcissistic personality disorder have structural abnormalities…

The Black Hole After Narcissistic Abuse — “Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Lord my soul to keep if I should die before I wake I pray the Lord my soul to take.” It’s been almost 2 years since the end of my marriage to a narcissistic psychopath. In the aftermath of his…

We are the sum total of our experiences and define ourselves by what we do and who we love. — My identity has been forged by a number of things. Life was not kind to me as a bi-racial female growing up in the Texas Panhandle in the 60’s and ’70s. Not only was the environment inhospitable to say the least, but my family was also plagued with mental illness…

The dysfunctional responses to childhood abuse manifest in a number of maladaptive ways — The intensely powerful and transcendent experience that sex can be between two people in a long-term committed relationship, one that is meaningful, intimate, and profound, is becoming increasingly difficult to find. Sex has become something else entirely — a way to anesthetize, control, subjugate or act out. It is a…

How I Kept Dancin’ When the Music Ended After NPD Abuse — “We are not ponds; we are rivers.” ~ Dr. Sam Vaknin, author of Malignant Self Love: Narcissism Revisited I’ve been a dancer all my life. Decades of ballet class, dance recitals, jazz and lyrical, and even some ballroom. One thing I know for sure, if you ever stop moving your…

Time is the Greatest Loss After the Narcissist Departs — But Forgiveness May be the Remedy Recovery from a relationship with a narcissistically disordered partner is a process, a long and complex process. After nearly 4 years, it is still a work in progress for me. …

And letting go of one. more. thing. is just too much. — I know there are so many people who suffer more than I do, and whose circumstances are far more dire. Loss is part of life. And unfortunately, many of us know it all too well. We have lost so many things in our lives, but the thought of releasing anything…

With reality bending multiverses, automatons, the advent of AI, not to mention the vampires, aliens, zombies, and narcissists — are you sure you even exist? — The narcissist and the psychopath killed themselves a long time ago. They have moved among us ever since, vibrantly co-existing with the living, but tragically vacant and lacking a pulse. They adapt, assimilate, acquire. They enmesh, entrain, engulf. And the technicolor dream-coat they wear is both stunning and seductive. They…