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Where is My Mind?
There are things about the minds of a person with a personality disorder that make them both monster an genius.
One of the red flag warnings that I chose to ignore for many long years centered around my ex-husband's ability to fall into a deadman’s slumber almost immediately when his head hit the pillow. It was a marvel to behold. In fact, it was incomprehensible how he could successfully summon sleep instantly regardless of the turmoil of life that would inevitably visit him. Job loss=peaceful sleep. Death in the family=restorative rest. Brutal disagreement= nighty-night. Nothing phased him. Eyes shut, lights out, no problem. He slept like an innocent. History and literature have always equated sleep as the gift of those pure-hearted individuals with a clean conscience. It is the reward for being a moral individual. In contrast, a night of tossing and turning represents a tortured soul, guilt-ridden, remorseful and contrite.
It is now coming into public awareness that people with cluster B disorders like narcissism, sociopathy, and psychopathy have brains that work differently and even look different from the normal human brain. MRI studies in recent research have concluded that patients with NPD had less brain matter…
