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Naked
Bare, powerless, vulnerable, nude, exposed, helpless —
The Narcissistic-Psychopath is a Master at Taking Off Your Clothes
The concept of being naked is one that can be disturbing. It implies revealing your most inner and vulnerable self and standing there in front of another — subject to scrutiny and judgment. It reveals your imperfections and insecurities. It shows your flaws. Few eyes can gaze upon this flesh-suit or birthday-suit that comprises a human form without feeling quite vulnerable and exposed. It is also used to describe things like “naked ambition” and “naked truth.” Depending on the context, the word consistently conveys a powerful image. It is a bold word. A raw, unfiltered word.
Throughout my long marriage, I maintained some modesty due to the fact that my husband was somewhat younger than me. I did not want him to witness any aging part of my body, so I was careful to maintain it and camouflage any part that might not be perfect. Quite often when I would step into the shower, he would be nearby and I would catch him standing there watching me. While I protested that I did not want to be seen in such an unflattering light, he always said the same thing. He always said, “I am your husband. It’s okay. I love looking at you.” There were many of these awkward moments in the last few months, but I did not understand what they were at…
