It takes a long time and a lot of work to accept the truth of what happenned and how it is not your fault. Others may not understand or believe it because it is all something so unbelievable and most people have no experience with it. Be kind to yourself and trust your gut. You know what he is, and that is all you need to know. Get away and begin work on creating a new version of yourself that is healed and whole.

My favorite expert who jhas taught me so much is Dr. Sam Vaknin. I isten to one video every day. Maybe start with this one from a couple of days ago: https://youtu.be/IhktI_zwF78