Don’t Think Twice It’s All Right

“I once loved a man, a child I am told
I gave him my heart but he wanted my soul
But don’t think twice, it’s all right.
I ain’t sayin’ you treated me unkind
You could have done better but I don’t mind
But don’t think twice, it’s all right”— Bob Dylan

Today, as I stood beside my attorney in front of the judge, I felt the courtroom swirling around me as I trembled and the floor opened up beneath my feet. If I fell, I would be swallowed up by the dark pit beneath me and never be seen again. Somehow I summoned the strength to make it through that trial by fire, and then I had to stand before the clerk and sign documents. My attorney kept telling me how lucky I was to get this done so quickly and with such a fair settlement. Her words sounded like the teacher on the Charlie Brown cartoons. She did not know how our marriage had been quite exceptional. . . at least much of the time. She did not know that I am still hopelessly and helplessly in love with the man he used to be or at least the illusion of who he pretended to be. She did not know that I gave up everything to be with him — career, family, everything. She did not know how well our jagged little pieces fit, how we worked together as a team, and how we had common goals that were mutually beneficial for many years. She did not know anything about us. It was complicated. She underestimated the gravity and weight of our bond. To her, he…