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Despair and Prayer: Look Up
Healing with faith and gratitude after betrayal trauma and abuse
Sometimes you have to accept that certain people are bridges, not the destination. The time you give to someone you love is never lost even if they choose to leave. There are so many ways we learn and grow and thrive from our failed relationships.
My ex showed me a world I never knew existed and for the first time in my life, I had a partnership with someone I adored. He was the first and only person to tell me something both novel and genius when he said, “ Hey, gummy bear, come over here for a second.” We stood near the entrance of a Target Superstore, and he pulled me close and put his arm around me. Then he said it. “Look up.”
I had never thought about it, but as I began to do it, it opened a whole new perspective. The vast space above the store now suddenly reached high above us and expansive beams stretched for miles and lights glowed with a million fluorescent tubes. I couldn’t believe I had never noticed this new panoramic vision before. I had always looked down or straight ahead. We went on to make it a routine shared mission, to witness a new world above the one I had always been limited to. I observed in awe at the ceilings in every store I entered, noticing birds or rafters or other amazing things. We stood under the canopy of…
