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Buried Alive — The Lies My Covert Narcissist Husband Told
5,256 days and nights we were married. And for 5,256 days and nights, my husband promised to be by my side forever.
He lied.
The day my covert narcissist discarded me out of the wild blue yonder, he turned to me and said, “I do not want to watch you get old and die. I don’t want to have to watch you gasping for your last breaths in a hospital bed. I don’t want to take care of you. I don’t want you at all. I just want to take care of me.”
After 15 years of marriage, I was dumbfounded. In shock. Decimated.
The cruelty and contempt I heard in his voice and saw on his face were more than my brain could process. He had never spoken to me this way before. Everything had been all sweetness and cuddles just minutes before the abrupt unmasking of his true ‘’false self.”
I had been idealised, devalued, and finally discarded, but I never realized what was happening until weeks, maybe months later. Of course, there were red flags along the way, but I couldn’t see them.
I have often wondered if I would have had the strength to leave if I had known that he was a disordered and mentally unstable person without the capacity for compassion, remorse, or any…
